Some are born to move the world, to live their fantasies.

Tunes in my head: Complicated Game by XTC
Mood: Depressed, miserable, in tears, you name it.

I don't appreciate the way you treat me. People recognise that you treat me like crap. And yet you do nothing to change it. Anything that can be done to make me feel like crap, you do.

You promised you'd be less selfish. And you haven't done anything to do that. Everything is still always about you. Whenever you have a problem, you've got no concerns in running to me to get concerns. But whenever I have something that I need to talk about, you don't give a shit. You just turn me away and make me feel worse.

You promised you'd stop taking all of your anger out on me. And yet you still continue to yell at me, to scream at me, to get pissed at me.

Can't you see that this approach isn't working? Do something different. Actually show some affection, some care. People are like plants. Affection is water. Aggression is fire.

You're burning me down so quickly. I can't go on like this.

Do you even put any strength in promises? It seems not. Every time you make one to me, you break it.

And you wonder why people don't trust you anymore. You wonder why your best friend even has his doubts. He can be the eternal optimist all the hell he wants, but even he can waver.

Whatever happened to being best friends, forever? Don't best friends support each other in their times of need, not tear the other one down?

I know I did. I know I did everything I could to make you feel like the great person I know you can be. And people recognised it. People recognised that we worked, that we were insanely happy.

And this is how you reward me? You reward me with all of this angst, all of this pain, and then you have the guts to go off at me because I get depressed because of it? Because of feelings I can't control?

It's really frustrating and it makes me so goddamn depressed. But that's life, isn't it?

Change it. Or else you won't have anybody to fall back on.