Remembering you, falling into my arms, crying for the death of your heart.

Tunes in my head: Pictures of You by The Cure
Atmosphere: Depressed

will I ever find the courage to let it all go?

i'm always just breaking apart
my pictures of you

Am I becoming more hardened emotionally? And is this a good thing?

The fact that even this doesn't affect me as much.

Will I be a hardened, empty shell?

I really don't want to be.

I like me being me. The highly emotional romantic that I am.

But he's dying.

He's dying from lack of use.

There are brief glimmers, but nothing full on. Nothing that actually means anything anymore.

To conclude tonight's depressing little entry, I'll show you something that I think is incredibly beautiful and at the same time depressing. And no, it's not a photo of Suzy.

Joy Division - Ceremony

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This is why events unnerve me
Then again, the same old story
Hope for turn, the wheels are turning
Turn again and turn towards this time
All she asked was strength to hold me
Then again the same old story
All the travelled oh so quickly
Travelled first and turned towards this time

I'll break them all, no mercy shown
Heaven knows it's got to be this time
Watching her the things she said
Time she cried too frail to wake this time

I'll break them down, no mercy shown
Heaven knows it's got to be this time
Avenues all lined with trees
Picture me and then you stand watching

Watching forever
Watching love grow