I kneel by the river by which she rides.

Tunes in my head: Tela by Phish
Atmosphere: Doesn't know. Loving?

In her gaze, I crumble into dust and drift away on the wind.

But then again, is that really so good?

She seems rather interested. Whether she actually is is anyone's guess, really.

I doubt myself some days, even over such silly issues.

I mean, should I be questioning myself so much over it or not?

Probably not.

But it's all I do anymore.

It'll end well, hopefully.

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as he saw his life run away from him
thousands ran along
chanting words from a song
"please me have no regrets"
came from the babies mouth
we followed the lines going south

I will never have regret, no matter what I do.

I may occasionally wish that things went differently.

But I will never regret the way things do go.

Because life is meant to go in whatever way it does.

In my opinion, we only have free thought, never truly free will.

This is as a result of other people's free will.

If nobody had free thought, however, how could they achieve free will?

Life will go on as a result of people's actions. Like it or not, another person's actions will always influence one's destiny.

As a result, a destiny can never be truly unbound unless as a result of complete solitude, which is at best impossible to achieve.

We are tied down by other people's actions.

By people's reactions to our actions.

People hold back as a result of these reactions. Surely there has been a moment in one's life where they have held back as a result of other's reactions.

As a direct result, the concept of free will is impossible to achieve.

Nobody can influence our thoughts.

But everybody can be influenced by them.