It's all gone before too long.

Tunes in my head: Kohoutek by R.E.M.
Atmosphere: Depressed. Insomnia.

I haven't smiled properly in weeks.

I haven't slept properly in weeks.

I don't sleep, I dream.

I have all of these pain filled dreams.

Physically and psychologically.

I'm finding it hard to get the strength to rise from bed every morning.

There's no end goal, no achievement.

No incentive.

Not anymore.

I'm finding joy to be a hard thing to find right now.

Maybe that's the way it's meant to be.

Happiness is the road...but it's so long right now.

It's a long path to traverse.

So it seems.

Will it become easier as I step further?

Or will it become harder as it seems to have been so far?

I'm falling further and further...the abyss is a hard place to land.