Tunes in my head: Taste by Phish
Atmosphere: Falling
Wear it on your sleeve, right, Michael?
What happens when we wear our emotions on our sleeve, leave them raw and open for the world to see, for the people inside to spit on them?
We got mocked. We get criticised for being so overtly emotional.
But I don't really see the problem in being open about these sensitive things, in actually being honest?
People who just mumble out an "I'm okay" often have things wrong with them. But by hiding them behind this shell, there can never be any resolution, any solution to their problem. By simply taking it in, they lose sensitivity, and eventually just decay and die.
But people who express their pain get lynched by the mob, don't they? People who say "hey, fuck it, I need help" basically get hung by the people who couldn't give less of a fuck.
I can't even express empathy for things anymore. I can't even say "oh, yes, I know how you feel" without being attacked for things. What the hell did I do? Nothing. I merely say "you have my sympathy" and I basically get clawed at and torn apart.
So now, what do I do?
Do I sit here and become cold, become emotionless and lose the integral part of me?
Or do I sit here and continue to emote and express, and continue to get criticised for "no, you can't be depressed, stop whining."
Like it or not, I am human. What happened when you needed a hand, when you were telling me of girls who would sit so far out of your reach? I was there. I would sit there and comfort, and talk.
And now when I actually need a hand, you do nothing but slap it away.
The conflict rages.
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People like to think their own problems are the most pressing. So they will hear your problem and think "hey I have it way worse but I'm fine so STFU". That, and/or they're bastards.
One possible explanation for the behaviour is that they believe that they have given you (what they think to be) a reasonable amount of help/support/etc and they think that you're not putting any energy into it yourself. (I have no idea what's going on so that could be entirely false)
Try talking to them about it. If they're still hostile/etc despite reasonable measures on your part, well then I can't think of any reason why you would want to know them.
"I know how you feel" is a dangerous phrase. As well as believing that their problems are the only ones that really matter, most people are also of the opinion that their problems are unique, special, etc. This allows them to hold on to the idea that they're not just rehashing some random person's life. When you say "I know how you feel" you threaten this - suddenly the problem isn't unique, oh noes, I'm not special anymore, somebody else can understand the problem! So they'll bite you for it. The usual teenage "NOBODY UNDERSTANDS MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!" comes into it as well. Another thing to consider is that perhaps they are especially raging/upset when you tell them this which exacerbates the "WUT YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND ME I AM SPECIAL *ATTACK*" response.
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