I don't usually do these, but...

Tunes in my head: Natural Science by Rush
Atmosphere: Desolate

I thought this one was good.

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10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now

1. You know how much I love you. You know that I'd do anything for you at anytime. I don't know why, but I would. I'd like you to actually appreciate this and return it. I feel you take me for granted a bit.

2. You've changed too much, look at what she's done to you. You've gone from someone who I can trust to someone who disgusts me.

3. You make me cry a lot. Sometimes happy tears. Sometimes sad tears. But always a raw emotional response whenever I think of you. It's strange, but what can I do about it? It's who I am, and you know that better than anyone.

4. Hurry up and come back already, I barely know you and I already miss you to bits.

5. I don't know, dude. I feel bad that she's taken my place somewhat. And I know she destroys you. I want you to get out. But I can't do it. And I don't want to at the risk of your happiness.

6. Do you really realise how many people hate you?

7. Even though I may have told you to some extent, there is still nothing I could ever say or do to ever encompass the respect I have for you.

8. You're a fucking arsehole. I specifically ask you not to do things that I know would make me out to be an idiot and you do them anyway. Thanks for ruining my chance.

9. Why can't you die?

10. I don't know where this is going. But it may end up good or bad. It'll be an interesting ride.


9 things people may not know about you

1. I still bite my nails.

2. I hate eating. Really.

3. Sleep is a rarity for me. It's hard especially in this heat.

4. I could once speak semi-fluent Spanish.

5. If you have green eyes, I will love you.

6. I don't actually enjoy drinking, contrary to my heritage.

7. If I could be a politican, I would run like hell to Europe.

8. I've never wanted nothing more than to be in a successfulish band.

9. My mind can run in circles and be a blank whiteboard.

8 ways to win your heart

1. Have a cute smile.

2. Be open to new things, experimentation, new music.

3. Affection.

4. Read as much as possible.

5. Know there is a time to be outgoing, and a time to be insular.

6. Make me smile.

7. Be yourself, it's most important.

8. Love me, for who I am, no matter what happens between us.

7 things that cross your mind a lot

1. The past.

2. The present.

3. The future.

4. Wishing.

5. Music.

6. What could have been.

7. Novel ideas.

6 things you do before you fall asleep (not in order)

1. Listen to music.

2. Brush teeth.

3. Wish.

4. Reminisce.

5. Try to make someone smile.

6. Generally, fail.

5 things you notice in the opposite sex

1. Personality.

2. Eyes.

3. Sense of humour.

4. Affection.

5. Openness.

4 things you wish you never did/had

1. Given up.

2. Been run over. Not by a car. But by people.

3. Let go of things dear to me.

4. Been convinced to do that subject.

3 songs to describe your life

1. The Sweetest Chill - Siouxsie and the Banshees.

2. World Leader Pretend by R.E.M.

3. Anything But Me by Phish.


2 things you want to do before you die

1. Make someone happy. Truly happy.

2. Make my impression on the world. Artistically, preferably.

1 confession

1. I am who I am. You all know who that is. Because I am so different from most of you, I'm so alone. I don't know what to do most days. And I'm more scared and afraid of life than anybody thinks. It sucks. But what can I do? The few people who actually can access me choose not to. So I sit, alone. And it fucks with me. I wish for impossible things. Knowing they will never come to fruitition. It only makes me more alone, more miserable. It's only a matter of time before the break. I'm not okay.